Lessons revisited....

Do you ever tire of learning the same lesson over and over again? Let me rephrase...
Do you ever tire of having the same lesson presented to you over and over again?

You have now entered FRUSTRATION STATION. To exit this depot you must LEARN the friggin' lesson!!!!

I'm constantly presented the same lesson to learn over and over again... *sigh* And I am willing to share it... maybe YOU can help ME...or maybe I can help YOU.

Either way I hope there is a benefit to what I"m about to write.

I am a Compulsive Overeater:
Definition: Uncontrolled eating or binging, during which I have pressured, frenzied episodes of eating and sometimes can not remember the onset of the episode. I will continue eating past the point of feeling full (thanksgiving full). The Episode is usually followed by guilt and depression.

This disorder is similar in severity to Alcoholism, Drug/Narcotic Addiction, and Sex Addiction. There is NO cure, yes it can kill you (directly or indirectly) there is only constant treatment. And it SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

About the Lesson...

I've been given a "tool" a way to help me beat this addiction, an advantage along with knowledge, education, support, and will power.

Still almost weekly I overeat, to the point where I'm in both physical and emotional pain. Why?
Yes yes because its an addiction... but aside from that. I have all these "tools" and all this knowledge, so again WHY?

Answer: I have been presented with the lesson- The question has been posed- I've answered the question.... I'm addicted, I've been receiving help.... but I'm not being MINDFUL of my response. I'm not being THOUGHTFUL to the lesson presented and my response.

When a person has a huge issue like an incurable disease or disorder... emotional conflicts and complex behavior patterns need to be dealt with. I have received help, guidance and continue to receive this and probably always will (bc there is no cure only maintenance). There is more... there is something I've not tapped into to help me Thoughtfully and Mindfully learn this lesson.

My journey continues... to help me find the untapped items... I blog, journal, meditate, and go to positive resources for assistance. Lesson still left Thoughtfully Unlearned.

S.S.E.

Repo man

So, as I was trying to get my 7hrs of sleep last night. The parking lot, and (since its attached to the parking lot area) my apt were filled with birght flood lights. The Repo Man had arrived to take my neighbors truck. How do you shed a positive light on this...
First thoughts...
How embarrasing
How unfortunate
Finances must be tight
How will they get to work?
...and the list goes on

How do you make lemonaide out of this Lemon (of which the truck was not, it was a nice truck)?

Attitude, Hope, Love, Gratitude

Attitude... dispositions are always choices, (and choices arent always easy to make) and should be tuned into the right channel...which is Gratitude.

Gratitude... is the appreciation of what you've got. SO what you dont have a car, but you've got legs, and those legs can get you to the bus stop, and that bus stop can get you to the terminal to buy a bus pass for the season. Apppreciation and Gratitude... now your Attitude can be tuned.

Hope... oh, imagine a world where you do have what you need... hmmm thats this world! You eat, you have a job, you have your family, you have friends, You have and have and have, and yes you want and want and want, but do you need? Truely...you dont!

Love... There are positive people in your life and there are positive venues and sources to grab hold to. Surround yourself in it, and the other areas will become easier and easier to attain.


S.S.E.

Everyday we're given a chance...

“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
Morrie Schwartz

This am I was waking into my office and the lady 15 steps in front of me didnt hold the door, and it made me wonder...what makes one look back, see someone 15 steps behind and not hold the door.

FOr me..if you're behind me, the door will be held open for you. If you're far enough back I will push the handicape button so the door stays open longer.

So if you cant hold the door for someone, how will you let something like love in your life? Seems to me if a simple task like courtesy is skipped over then so much more can be skipped.

dream....

"Most people who fail in their dreams fail not from lack of ability, but from lack of commitment"

The little engine should have said, I know I can, I know I can.

instead of giving my self reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can.

work hard!!!

"remember- the "free" cheese is in a mousetrap" Anonymous