Life is curly

So... though things may be tangled and uncomfortable now (or at some point), it will always straighten out. Life has a way of making us experience it!

So I think Life is Curly...

It has knots and it has tangles, it has rips and tears... so though it may never be straight...it wont stay knotty, tangled and ripped and torn too long. Hang on... and...

Dont worry, choose happy!

SSE

"easier said than done"

I use that phrase....but not too often.

I think of it as a way to escape reality. You say that when there is a task to take on that you
1. Dont want to have to face
B. Dont want to fail at
III. Dont know how to begin

We all know that when we get on the other side of that task there are a million ways we can replay it or a million ways we can tell ourselves "I should have done it this way or that way".

Whats the point? Just do it... whether its easy to say or not... DO IT!

SSE

Learning to love

It's important to give love to yourself and notice when you are failing at it. I'm failing...

So... when I fail at loving myself I send myself reminders in the form of "pain", "discomfort", "akwardness" I will trip up stairs, slam my hand in a car door, lose my swim top... seriously this stuff has happend. These are all wake up signsto myself that I'm not treating myself well.

NO, I DO NOT DO THIS ON PURPOSE, but the fact of the matter is..subconciously yes I'm sabatoging myself...

WOrking on it!!!

"To love one's self is the begging if of a life-long romance." Oscar Wilde

SSE

Who'd have known

by Lily Allen.

good stuff... feels good!

Important things

I cant say I'm prefect! lol Isnt that funny? I mean seriously who is perfect... There is a lesson I struggle with learning...and I'm happy in one way that its a daily struggle and I'm sad in other ways that its a daily struggle.

happy: I have great people in my life that I communicate with daily. They want to share love, give love, share time, give time, etc so on an so forth.

sad: I dont always know how to receive it. I back away from it, laugh it off, or feel unworthy.

"the most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love and let it come in." Morrie Schwartz


If I dont know how to let it come in, am I really capable of giving it? Isnt love infinite? Like the infinity sign... it never ends and if I dont take love in....how do I give it out...it would break the infinte cycle wouldnt it?

Anyway... Learning... challanged... trying...

SSE

Lessons revisited....

Do you ever tire of learning the same lesson over and over again? Let me rephrase...
Do you ever tire of having the same lesson presented to you over and over again?

You have now entered FRUSTRATION STATION. To exit this depot you must LEARN the friggin' lesson!!!!

I'm constantly presented the same lesson to learn over and over again... *sigh* And I am willing to share it... maybe YOU can help ME...or maybe I can help YOU.

Either way I hope there is a benefit to what I"m about to write.

I am a Compulsive Overeater:
Definition: Uncontrolled eating or binging, during which I have pressured, frenzied episodes of eating and sometimes can not remember the onset of the episode. I will continue eating past the point of feeling full (thanksgiving full). The Episode is usually followed by guilt and depression.

This disorder is similar in severity to Alcoholism, Drug/Narcotic Addiction, and Sex Addiction. There is NO cure, yes it can kill you (directly or indirectly) there is only constant treatment. And it SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

About the Lesson...

I've been given a "tool" a way to help me beat this addiction, an advantage along with knowledge, education, support, and will power.

Still almost weekly I overeat, to the point where I'm in both physical and emotional pain. Why?
Yes yes because its an addiction... but aside from that. I have all these "tools" and all this knowledge, so again WHY?

Answer: I have been presented with the lesson- The question has been posed- I've answered the question.... I'm addicted, I've been receiving help.... but I'm not being MINDFUL of my response. I'm not being THOUGHTFUL to the lesson presented and my response.

When a person has a huge issue like an incurable disease or disorder... emotional conflicts and complex behavior patterns need to be dealt with. I have received help, guidance and continue to receive this and probably always will (bc there is no cure only maintenance). There is more... there is something I've not tapped into to help me Thoughtfully and Mindfully learn this lesson.

My journey continues... to help me find the untapped items... I blog, journal, meditate, and go to positive resources for assistance. Lesson still left Thoughtfully Unlearned.

S.S.E.

Repo man

So, as I was trying to get my 7hrs of sleep last night. The parking lot, and (since its attached to the parking lot area) my apt were filled with birght flood lights. The Repo Man had arrived to take my neighbors truck. How do you shed a positive light on this...
First thoughts...
How embarrasing
How unfortunate
Finances must be tight
How will they get to work?
...and the list goes on

How do you make lemonaide out of this Lemon (of which the truck was not, it was a nice truck)?

Attitude, Hope, Love, Gratitude

Attitude... dispositions are always choices, (and choices arent always easy to make) and should be tuned into the right channel...which is Gratitude.

Gratitude... is the appreciation of what you've got. SO what you dont have a car, but you've got legs, and those legs can get you to the bus stop, and that bus stop can get you to the terminal to buy a bus pass for the season. Apppreciation and Gratitude... now your Attitude can be tuned.

Hope... oh, imagine a world where you do have what you need... hmmm thats this world! You eat, you have a job, you have your family, you have friends, You have and have and have, and yes you want and want and want, but do you need? Truely...you dont!

Love... There are positive people in your life and there are positive venues and sources to grab hold to. Surround yourself in it, and the other areas will become easier and easier to attain.


S.S.E.